binge
6 poptarts
1 fried mandu
2 steamed mandu
3 pieces lemon cake
1 jello cup
4 koolaid juice icees

Should it be humanly possible for one girl to be able to eat so much (and that's not counting breakfast)?
I feel disgusting.
I feel like my entire body is just twitching with the desire to go to the bathroom and get rid of it
But I won't.  I'm stronger then this.  I've proven that time and time again.
Only it feels worse somehow now
who stocked this house with junkfood anyway >=(
 

 ::sigh:: Today was bad
I don't think I went over 1800 calories.
BUT I definatly went over 1500.
Today was my uncles birthday and the day before my grandma went back to Spain
sooo. There was food.  a lot of it.
Granted I didn't go overboard but I just know it wasn't healthy.
And I also ate 3 pop tarts.
And I wanted to work out but an old friend stopped by since she was in town and we talked until 10!
So time was completly wasted (not that I didn't enjoy hanging out with her)
Tommorrow will be a better day.
::sigh:: since when did I become an expert on tommorrows
=(
I'm running out of time !!

calories
1 asiago bagel with creamcheese (390)
10 croutons (50)
1 koolaid icee (200)
1 turkey patty with white rice & broccilli (440)
1 slice ginger cake (220)

Total : 1300

exactly 100 calories over.
ugh.

Water Intake: (x)(x)(x)(x)(x)(x)(x)(x)
Green Tea Intake: ( )( )
Honey/cinnamon drink: (x)

I'm starting this honey/cinnamon drink mixture that is supposed to help you lose weight/be healthier
It sounds kind of too good to be true to me (the whole lose weight part)
but I mean...what harm can it do?
It's just honey, ground cinnamon, and water.

I've also been severly limiting my rice intake. 
Today was the first time in a month that I've had any.  
It's easy to do now since I'm not at home with my parents but I know once I return it's going to be hard(er).
I'll manage. 

 calories

1 plain bagel w/ cream cheese (340)
1 diet coke (0)
1 bottle sparkling water (0)
1 botle of water (0)
1 serving dennys hashbrowns (218)
1 moons over my hammy (807) < yikes!
Total 1365

aish...
well.  since today was saturday I'll take it as a test run 
Tommorrow is when the week starts and when everything has to be perfect.
I'll stick to my plan.  HWAITING!

1 sesame seed bagel w/ 2 table spoons creamcheese         380         
1 cup coffe w/ whole milk and 3 teaspoons of sugar          77
1 turkey sandwhich on wheat bread          265
1 serving harvest cheder sunchips          140
1 bottle of water          0
1 celeste pizza for one          410
1 cup grape juice          120

Total          1392

WELL.  It's not below the 12oo mark, but it is me eating 3x a day~which is very rare.
I usually grab something for breakfast and buy something from the vending machine when I can't hear myself think because of my stomach rumbling but today I made sure to eat lunch and drink.....NO SODA!  It was so difficult choosing water but totally worth it.  I feel very proud!
And I've drank (drunken?) so much water today!  It's so hot outside~it's not even summer yet!  Everyone was sweating and uncomfortable~no one could focus in class, even the teachers were unable to function properly.
Ha, I'm going to lose weight twice as fast for sweating so much ha ha xD
I wish lol

I've been doing a lot of thinking these few days.
Like, I'm happiest and the most confident when I'm excercising and eating right. When I overcome little challenges in not eating/drinking that or pushing myself to get off my butt and excercise I feel really good but when I do give in and don't get up I feel really down. I feel lazy and gross and just unhappy with myself.
So why do I keep doing it? Why do people chose a moments gratification over something that means so much more? Where's the sense in that?

I'm pushing for too much too soon I think, I'm expecting eating right automatically equaling looking great and that automatically equaling being happy and satisfied.

I'm going to take things slow and steady. Day by day. I'm not going to start over because I haven't been keeping tabs on myself~I'm going to take each day like it comes. Today after yesterday and not try to make it seem like yesterday or the day before that or the day before that didn't happen and doesn't matter. Today is day 12 and even if I haven't made much physical progress~I think my mental progress and maturity has actually been quite immense ♥

SO. I'm going to make practical and realistic goals for this week:

Plain bagel with jelly
280
1 cup fruit punch
120
1 bag cookies
240
1 bag chedder sunchips
160
1 hagen daaz ice cream bar
160
1 turkey burger
360
Total
1320

Afterwards my dad picked me up from school and bought me~ice cream x.x.

I want to go shopping soon so that I can buy stuff to take with me to school that way when I'm there I won't fall prey to the evil that is the vending machine.

Any suggestions? What do you guys usually carry around with you when you know you won't have time to actually sit and eat?

Tommorrow is my honor ceremony. I wished to be 155 pounds by then but alas~unless I can drop 8 lbs in a night, that's not happening xD. Oh well. I'm happy with the weight I lost and I'll continue to move forward. I won't let myself get depressed about the fact that I haven't lost weight because that will ruin my day (and my new, 1 size smaller gorgeous dress =D).

Stay strong everyone ♥

Now that all the serious exams are (for the most part) over I plan on seriously tackling keeping a daily food log of what I eat!
No more excuses or anything~and if I can't get to a computer I'll jott it down on a piece of paper to update later.
WHOo~LET'S DO THIS! ha ha

I lost 3 lbs!!! 
I can’t believe it. I was dreading stepping on the scale, but I knew I needed to to see where I was and~
BAM! 3lbs in the direction OPPOSITE where I thought it was going to be ha ha. 

I’m really happy.

I haven’t really been paying much attention to what I’ve been eating~because I haven’t really had time. I’d been worrying about the SAT’s and preparing for the AP exams I have to take this week~but at the same time since I was so busy I didn’t have time to stuff my face with junk xD. I also was only able to work out for 3o minutes 3 days this week but IT WORKED! Just goes to show how much of a difference exercise really does make.

I think if I push push push myself for the 1o days I have left until the ceremony I may be able to loose 4 more lbs? Which will make my weight loss total by the time of the ceremony 7 lbs~Only 3 lbs off from my goal!

Whooo HWAITINGGGG~!!

I hope everyone else is doing fine♥ Don't give up~!   We'll definatly do this !

UGH.  Now back to those AP prep books ::cries::